Saturday, December 31, 2011

To let the "true" me show

As 2011 cones to an end, I look back at the year and am amazed at how much can happen.... so quickly too. This year came with it's ups and downs, but as you can tell by the fact I'm writing this, I survived. If I was truly honest I would say I have grown a lot!

This is shown ( to me at least) by the fact that someone I met at the lowest point of this year for me told me the other day that she's a change in me. I have experienced so much this year that I am a stronger and slightly more confident person. Though she did tell me that she knows of the one major reason why the " true" me isn't coming out. But that is what I am working on starting in 2012. For reals this time.
I have a plan.
I have an accountability person.

I am ready to let myself live.

I don't look back on this past year and regret things done or not done. Instead I feel the change that occurred me. It feels good to "take charge" and not let things pass by.

One step at I time.

One day at a time.

I welcome 2012 with open arms.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

To no longer be just a pretty smile

Well after a really long sabbatical I'm back.. I know I know where have I been? Lol...

As the new year approaches the normal of resolution creations begin. for me there have been a ton of resolutions not succeeded. So this new year I'm not making any resolutions, they will only set me up for failure which will cause part of the reason why I even need resolutions. So instead I'm making plans.

Already have it set ip to go to the gym after work.
Know my eating plan (weight watcher).
Have a budget planned out.
Am making dr. Appointments

This new year I have deemed my Year of Health.

No longer am I going to accept me caring about everyone and thing but myself. In order to be there for others I need to take care of myself. I am finally at a point (mentally) to set things in motion.
My life, my job, and my future need me to take care of myself NOW!

I can't wait until the session of work where I can be more active with the kiddo... Where I don't need to take a second to catch my breath just simply going up stairs to the office. Even more now is the fire in me to complete this..
sure I hope I won't the lottery of the biggest loser but if I am meant to do it "on my own" then I will. No more sitting on my tooshy hoping my number comes up in the BL lottery. Yes I plan on still auditioning ... But i am going to be a little bit lighter each time until I am under the cut off weight.

So, as I create my " plan" and dream boards and prepare myself I will enjoy the newest seasons of weight-loss shows and cheering peeps on twitter or f-book.

But most of all I will begin loving me.