This post is one that hits a nerve with me. Yesterday I read that Paster Rick Warren's son committed suicide after his lifetime suffering from depression. In a news release, Pastor Warren mentioned something his son said 10 years ago (something that I remember praying to God about) but his son (mind you this is paraphrased a little) had said that sometimes he wonders why God cant bring him to heaven now and end this pain and suffering.
Reading that brought tears to my eyes and my heart weeps for the Warren family and EVERY family and individual that is suffering from depression and any other mental illness!!!!!!
I know from my own personal story of dealing with depression since junior high, and only since 2007 sought help for it, that it is hard living life. For me it was especially hard being a Christian as well. That brought in a whole other realm of questions and thoughts and fears.
But anywhoo... saving my sob story for a later date.
I hope that someday I can help a person or persons out of that darkness... or at least enough to get them away from the thoughts of ending their own life.
I will admit that to this day I still wonder sometimes why God hasnt or didnt take me years ago, and it can be hard to see the light in the darkness. But His strength and loving arms are what have picked me up out of bed and kept me going. I know that there is a reason Im still here, and though today (or tomorrow or whenever) may be a rough one and doesnt seem worth it, there is a reason Im going through the pain.
If someone out there reads this and is suffering, please know that you are worthy to live!! and seek help. It is okay to reach out.
If someone out there reads this and knows someone suffering, be sure to let them know you care for them.