TGIF!!!

Yep..

Honestly today started off rough. I was this close (picture me holding my fingers close together) to not coming. I got sad because of a situation that happened with BL. But I knew that I would hate myself if I didnt. If anything, I will meet some new friends. Maybe some will become long term friends. So.. I finished packing... watched the rest of my shows on DVR... and off I went. I did pretty well if I say so myself. I thought it was going to be WAYYYY worse then it was! There was only one incident where a person almost collided with my passenger side front bumper, but my horn was blown and I was over it. lol... I dont see how LA'ians can do this every day! I would make myself try really hard to get a job really close to where I lived and my butt would walk back and forth to work! Anywhoo... I made it safely.
Got to my hotel.. again, appears better then I thought. And to my surprise it is A LOT cooler here there at my home! Plus, where my room is I get a breeze from the hallway. Ironically, I got placed in a room right across from the hotel gym. How hilarious is that??!! I guess fate is making sure I know no matter what results from this weekend, my butt is going to work out! lol.. I just cant get over that.

Then I felt like an idiot because I went to access the internet and of course there is a code and password needed. So I walked my butt to the lobby only to be told that it was on my key card envelope the whole time. DUH!!! lol.. I even saw it, but just thought it was something they used it for. So after walking back to my room, I did my homework for today. And am relaxing until the meet n greet. Will post more later (with maybe a picture or two).

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Pre-Game Home Stretch

Thats right folks... It's the night before I leave to go to LA for the Meet n Greet Friday night and then the casting call Saturday...

It was cool.. I got my photos developed today for the casting call... and the photo lady looked at them and we got into a discussion about me trying out for BL.. and she "memorized" my last name and said she hopes I get on and will be praying for me... it was awesome... lol.. this is wayyy far fetched, but it was like a TINY glimpse of how out of the box I can be. Hard to really explain what I mean, but eh.. i tried.

Dropped my parents off at the airport. My dad is a hoot. He thinks he owns the road and I guess the airport drop off lanes.. if he sees that someone can scooch up a little he will let it be known... lol.. oie.. It is going to be interesting if we get on the show together... BUT.. they made it safe to their destination. Then... I made it home without my navigation system. Thank you thank you... lol. I was quite proud of myself.

My stye was less severe today!!!! I was excited. It did not hurt today. Still was a little red and swollen, but definitely not as much as the past 2 days. Been doing the warm compresses and medicine the doc gave me.

Lets see.... Got packed.. still have to get my computer and toiletries together, but for the most part Im good.

Im a little worried. I havent gotten something that I was told I would.

lol.. I got a package in the mail today. It was from NBC and I started freaking... but it was in a different state.. then I remembered... my BODYBUGG. woohoo.. that sucker was busted open in seconds! Now I just have to wait a couple days to use it.

Im excited to meet everyone at the meet n greet! I feel like I have already known a few them... and am excited to meet the others. Team LA!! It would be cool if they did one HUGE Biggest Loser!! Where they had EVERYONE! lol.. Poor Bob and the other trainers would go crazy.. haha..

k... going to get some zz's before I hit the road tomorrow. Woohoo! I have never been so excited to go to LA before. lol.. normally I wince... with the thought of traffic... but no... grin from ear to ear now.. hehe..

nighty night all.

Mi Papa es en la casa

Woohoo.. my dad came home today for his week "vacation" from work. Now I did get a little disappointed because he looked like he actually lost weight therefore kicking him out of eligibility for the show. However, he didnt. lol... I told him what I thought and he made me watch him step on the scale.. haha... it was funny. So.. I still have a partner.. AND... Watching Season 6 gave me more hope. Shellay reminds me of my dad in the sense of their weight is more then what you see/think. So hopefully if the cd's see something in me they will give my dad a chance too. We shall see...

Only a COUPLE more days until I leave to LA... woohoo!!

I am excited for it a hundred times over. But sometimes things happen and it feels like the world is against you. lol.. that is way exaggerated for what I mean, but it gets the point across. First my acne decided to flare up.. so Ive been working the ointments..lol... Then I guess when I weed whacked the yard stuff got in my eye and irritated my eyelid. Cuz yesterday I woke up and my eyelid was a little bit swollen and tender. I wake up this morning and it looked like I got punched in the eye. Swollen to where it went up to a little above the color part... and definitely tender. It hurts whenever I blink. So I tried to get a doc appointment for today but they were booked, so I got one tomorrow morning. In the mean time I am going to be putting warm compresses on it 3/4 times today. But man. I am only imagining what it is going to look like tomorrow! I REALLY hopes it goes down by Saturday!! I dont want to show up with a swollen eye... especially if i get a callback I dont want to do the interview with a swollen eye... hopefully its a quick fix. We shall see bright and early tomorrow. The next thing is that my dad first made it sound like if we got a callback that he could easily tell his work and postpone him coming in. Today he tells me that theres no way he can, and monday is the only day he can do the interview, if not sunday night. So we shall see. No point in stressing about it if it doesnt happen.

So I am oober excited for another thing. Either after the BL or after the casting call, I get to get a doggy!! I am super excited. Depending what happens with the the casting call will determine when I get it. Not sure what one, I have seen a ton that I wouldnt mind. So I have to go and see them in person to narrow the choices down. lol..

k.. Getting tired so I will see yall later.

Distance Between Us...

Why hello there my long lost friend... lol.. sorry I have neglected you for the past week!!!! I cant believe we are in the FINAL countdown until the casting call!!! eeeeeekkk!!! lol..

Well.. this PAST week has been... so-so. Did got get a good (in my mind at least) grade on my first paper in the class I am LOVING!! so that was a bummer. But.. I have a critical analysis due this week that I think I am going to R-O-C-K. I love the analyses. They fit perfectly with I do naturally..lol..

Found out that Austin from BL11 is going to be at the casting call.. WOOHOO!!! He is the only one that has stated that he will.. (or at least the only one I have seen). Still keeping my fingers crossed for Hannah and Shay!!!! But OFCOURSE--- any of them would be fab-u-lous! I wish they were having a reunion that weekend so we had a greater chance of seeing a lot more of them. ha. possibly.

ummm.. OH!!

I WEED WHACKED!!! hehe. For the first time ever. I weed whacked my front lawn. Man!! I haven't sweated that much in a long time. It was one of those where your socks are soaked when you take em off... and sometimes (although gross) it's cooler to keep your icky sweaty clothes on.. lol... My arm muscles got soo worked out that when I tried to scrub my arm with soap n water my arms were shaking and I had to put my hand on the wall to sturdy it. lol.. it was a funny thing. And surprisingly enough I am not as sore as I thought I would be today. I have plans on working on the back yard too.. now mind you the back yard is big enough to put another house on... so there is A LOT to do. lol.. but luckily my neighbor offered to be our gardner so I will have some help. I told him that I am not going to let him tackle that on his own. lol.. And that I have to help him somehow. I started the "transformation" process on the yard I want to continue it. I guess thats the perfectionism kick in me. oie.. But anywhoo.. I was very proud of myself!! I dont know. I am not about to say this to say I dont need a man.. but it is nice to know that I can do stuff that is gender-typed for a male!

Dad is coming home in a couple days.. woohoo... so I get to give him the low down in person of what he agreed to. ha.. j/k. I really wish that they did it like the Australia version of BL.. where they actually took a family of more then 2 people. Of course if they did, for my family it would need the added stipulation of getting paid very well!! lol.. But my mom really needs this, I need this, and my dad does too. But my mom is the bill payer/scheduler of the family. So she will have to do it on her own if we get on the show... ofcourse she will have the bonus of having the biggest loser body bugg that I won!! heehhehehe..

lets see lets see.. oh... I got the cutest earrings this weekend!!! 4 sets of them. ha.. they had a BOGO 1/2 sale.. I had to. lol.. and I got a ring too... I love the ring!!! I am oober excited about it. Shopping for the accessories of my outfit for the casting call made me realize another reason why I want the Biggest Loser. Ofcourse this is a vain one.. but I need the biggest loser because there are soooo many pieces of jewelry that i heart that just doesnt look right because my fingers are to chubby.. or my neck is too thick so the necklace is smaller then its supposed to be... or earrings just dont sit right... lol.. I will be a jewelry whore when I finally lose the weight. oh man!! lol.. j/k. I am too much of a bargain shopper and analyzer to spend all my monies on jewelry. They would be prizes for me. lol.. I dont know.. I just know w/out the weight I would enjoy wearing jewlery more! lol..

k.. I am beginning to ramble as you can tell by the length of this blog.. sorry by the way... so I will bid adue..

5 days till Im in LA for the CC... BIG SMILEY FACE!

p.s. k.. sorry one last thing... but I just realized with seeing how many other people I am going to meet... I havent felt this a live in forever. What I mean is... fears I have had or dissipating.. confidence is rising.. and happiness is there..

Weekend of Calm

It was a GREAT weekend. My mother and I went to see "The Help" on Saturday. It was fabulous! I am definitely going to buy it when it comes to DVD. And I may even loosen my penny pincher grip and not wait until it's ten dollars. lol. Another little tidbit about me: I strongly dislike buying movies over ten dollars! It has to be absolutely amazing to me to pay more. I think its rediculous that they sell it for 25 the first week to a month then drop it half price after. Sometimes I have to wait forever to buy it less, but then again I dont NEED them. Right now there are other things more important that I need to put money towards then a DVD that may go "out of fashion" like the vhs. I dont know. I am quite the penny pincher none the less.

Back on topic. lol.

Then I got some outfits. I am excited for them! I was able to get new looks for me at a reasonable price. lol. Im deciding if I want to wear one of them for the casting call. Going to take a picture of me in it to get a "different view" of it before I make my final decision. I am excited. Doing a "test run" of it tomorrow when I do my errands.

Heard there was a TON of people at this weekends casting calls. I heard over 1000 in one city. I admire the casting directors for toughing through ALL the interviews. Then coming together at the end of them to go through all of them and make decisions for the call backs. Phew! I hope they are getting paid GOOD! lol. I hope they all take a BIG weekend vacation once it is passed to the execs to make the decisions!

Then today was a nice relaxing day. It was hot, but thank God for the creation of the air conditioner!! Got me a copy of the new Fitness magazine with the beautiful and wonderful Olivia and Hannah! I heard that they are at the Biggest Loser Resort Malibu for the next 2 weeks... SOOOOO.. I am hoping that they make an appearance at the casting call. How AH-MAZING would that be??!! But then an additional hope is that they are there long enough or whatever to wear I can grab a minute and picture with them. They are the couple that inspired me further to this journey. I had already made the decision to get healthy. But they helped tip it over the edge (in a good way). But we shall see... I also hope that Shay comes!! She also has helped me. She has been the most easily responsive to me and my questions. She always has the right words to say. But we shall see. No matter who comes, I am excited to see them. I hope I can get pics with them! That they stay longer then 2 minutes. lol. I am sure that there will be a lot of people there too. oh boy.

My dad is getting more excited for this too. Since he said okay to being my partner, he has texted and called a ton of times to talk about it. hehe. Cuteness. Sigh.

K... on to start a good nights sleep (hopefully) so I can start the week off right tomorrow... Night everyone.

12 days until my casting cal... AHHHHH!! soooo excited.

T.G.I. Friday!!!

I am so glad it's Friday. That means there are another round of casting calls tomorrow!! Woohoo!!! One is in Phoenix.. which fate would have it my dad has a load to deliver there. Unfortunately fate would NOT have him being there long enough to sneak over the casting call.. lame. lol..

But good news I got reply from casting director that I can bring a photo with me to the LA cc and thats okay.

Remember in a previous post where I procrastinated on a homework assignment.. I think it was the excuses post... anywhoo... I have seen that promise come a live in me. I have been doing well in my new class. Not waiting until the last minute to the work. And I must say... it feels GOOD to not be stressing over it. lol.. thats a huge duh I know.. but oh well. Ya live and learn right. It just took me a few years of repeating the same thing to learn. eh...

Im excited for tomorrow because my mom and I are going to see the movie "The Help." I will post a little review on here tomorrow. Then we are going clothes hunting for my cc outfit. The hard part Im having to deal with is the cost! The last time I went clothes shopping it was bargain hunting and I nearly had a heart attack at what i spent then. Now, I freak out looking online and seeing the prices. Now I know that I will wear the thing to it's last thread. It's just hard to cough up the money. Especially for the plus size clothes. They always add the couple extra dollars to the extended sizes... which is annoying. I mean I get it because it takes more fabric, but still... they dont change the cost between the sm, m, l, xl. Why do they need to for the 2x and above??!! Phew... need to stop before I go on a tangent.

In 2 weekends I will be in my hotel at this time... trying to relax enough to get settled into sleep. And the next day I will be going to the CC.

I am oober excited to do the meet n greet!! Bowling time!! HOLLA!!!! lol..

I want to wish EVERYONE a GREAT weekend! To those attending the casting calls... goodluck. Dont forget to be yourselves and SHINE! To those not, remember you are AWESOME! We are all amazing people! Show or not, we can do this!

Weener, Weener, Chicken Dinner

hehe..

So yeah. The last few days have been awesome! When I would feel down, something would happen and pick me right up. I have been shot up to the moon twice and it's only been adding smile/laugh lines. ha..

So yeah. I entered a sweepstakes to win a bodybugg just for fun... thinking there's NO way I could win. I'd entered similar contests before and NEVER won. But... the stars aligned for me. I WON!!!! BIG SMILES!!! I won a Biggest Loser Body Bugg with a 12-month subscription to the online service. HOW AMAZING is that??!!! So, if I do not get on the television show, I will have the tool they use to track and can be "hardcore" on my own. lol. AND, if I DO get on the show my mom can use the bodybugg. Which we both are hoping for the later one! hehe.. And I got a promise out of her that if I got on the show that she would do it at home. So it would be another story like Ben and Olivia. Hopefully at least. I think that would be AWESOME!!

(Just a little insight into the labrynth of my mind, I tend to over think/analyze things..)
So when my mom got home I started to try to get her to say okay..lol. then I talked to her to get her pov. So I could send rebuttles and possibly make her run out of excuses. Only thing is... her points were valid. With our family, she is not in the position where she could. There's a lot more to it, but no need to plaster her/our life on here. But she did mention that she hopes I get on because she would use the bodybugg I won to do it at home and surprise me. So we started brainstorming family members. I tried a couple of my cousins.. the one i really wanted is too skinny.. darnit..lol... then i was just grasping at straws. I ended up asking a couple people who are just friends. And even asked my dad. Now my dad does not look or have that much weight to lose like the other males that have been on the show. But, he does have the minimum requirement!! hehe. So i thought Id give it a whurl. Guess what??!! My dad said okay!!! I nearly jit my head on the ceiling I was jumping so high.
So.. I now have an official team member.. my dad. Woot Woot. I already claim a nick name for him.. "Big Bird"..lol. I have to look into that first to see what meanings are attached to it, but that is his body type. He has skinny legs, is tall, and his weight is in the mid section. lol. We could be big bird and the cookie monster. HA..
Let me tell you. That would be interesting! lol... Not only the normal father/daughter type support on one end and sometimes bickering on the other end... but i think he would mesh well with the other contestants. And again, there may be some bickering..lol. My dad and I are stubborn. Yes I get a tid but from my mom... the majority of it comes from my dad. lol. I heart my dad. He uplifted me when I first doubted this process to offering to be on it with me. It brings happiness and scared feelings. Mostly happy because I think it would make our bond closer. Not that it's not, but sometimes it's hard reading him. So if it happens this will smack us into understanding...

And fate worked it well, or at least it did if the casting directors like me enough to do the in front camera interview. Because my dad won a NASCAR prize through his work, so he will be there representing his work with my mom. That is the day of the casting call. But, fate has it where they get back the day after the cc, and he is home for a couple days before he has to hit the road again on the Wednesday after the cc. Soooo... that means that IF the directors like me enough from the CC and want to see how I am with my dad enough to call us back for an interview, then we can do it. I would hope that I could inform them somehow the date situation, but yeah. I am super excited!


So I have both basis covered. If on the show I have my dad to double my chances. If I dont, then I have the bodybugg.

2011 is turning out to be a GREAT year! Not only am I getting mentally healthy. But I have this opportunity to get physically healthy. And no matter what the outcome, I will work on getting physically healthy.

thank you Biggest Loser for helping me realize a lot and gaining the determination I lost years ago.